If I should die right now,

would you cry for me publicly?

Or would it be done secretly?

If I toke my very last breath,

would your heart be broken?

That you yearn for your very death.

If the Lord decided to take my soul tonight,

would there be words left unsaid?

and would that be alright.

If someone should take my very life,

would you look at the world the same?

Or would you now be filled with strife.

I know my heart would be broken,

if the Lord decided to give you wings,

for there is so much left unspoken,

my soul would not sing.

So I will say a little prayer tonight,

that you will be okay

And there will be no words

left unsaid.

When your soul finally flies away.

So many things can be forgotten,

but I know this much is true,

that my soul will forever be in love with you

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I need to tell you my love,

that I want to be more then enough.

I want for you to love me so intensely,

then you will know we were meant to be.

I want to feel your precious lips against mine,

as your finger tips slowly trace my spine.

To feel your hands draw my body closer to you.

While I look into your eyes, the most pure blue.

The first  time I saw you,

 

I felt something new.

I saw the most beautiful soul,

And it belongs to you.

The whole thing scared me,

so I hid it for years,

hoping and wishing,

My feelings will disappear.

So I started wanting to know everything about you,

To see if what I feel in my heart is true.

I wanted to see if real feeling were there,

To be able to know if I really care.

Then it hit me like a boulder,

And I became so weak.

Then the words I longed to say,

I did not have the courage to speak.

I wish I could see your face every day,

to forever hold the key to your heart,

For only you know the way.

Then this would not just be a fantasy,

but it truly would be,

You and me.

I saw this this on a Jewish websiteBeautiful Women

• Did you know that if shop mannequins were real women they'd be too thin to menstruate?
• There are 3 billion women who don't look like supermodels and only eight who do.
• Marilyn Monroe wore a size 14.
• If Barbie was a real woman, she'd have to walk on all fours due to her proportions.
• The average woman weighs 144 lbs. and wears between a 12-14.
• The models in the magazines are airbrushed - not perfect!
• A psychological study in 1995 found that three minutes spent looking at a fashion magazine caused 70% of women to feel depressed, guilty and shameful.
• Models twenty years ago weighed 8% less than the average woman. Today they weigh 23% less.

  Beauty of a Woman
  The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure she carries or the way she combs her hair.
  The beauty of a woman must be seen from her eyes,
  Because that is the doorway to her heart, the place where love resides.
  The beauty of a woman is not in a facial mole,
  But true beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul.
  It is the caring that she lovingly gives, the passion that she shows,
  The beauty of a woman with passing years - only grows.

  An English professor wrote the words,
  "Woman without her man is nothing," on the blackboard and directed the students to punctuate it correctly.
  The men wrote: "Woman, without her man, is nothing."
  The women wrote: "Woman! Without her, man is nothing."

  The Images of Mother
  4 YEARS OF AGE ~ My Mommy can do anything!
  8 YEARS OF AGE ~ My Mom knows a lot! A whole lot!
  12 YEARS OF AGE ~ My Mother doesn't really know quite everything.
  14 YEARS OF AGE ~ Naturally, Mother doesn't know that, either.
  16 YEARS OF AGE ~ Mother? She's hopelessly old-fashioned.
  18 YEARS OF AGE ~ That old woman? She's way out of date!
  25 YEARS OF AGE ~ Well, she might know a little bit about it.
  35 YEARS OF AGE ~ Before we decide, let's get Mom's opinion.
  45 YEARS OF AGE ~ Wonder what Mom would have thought about it?
  65 YEARS OF AGE ~ Wish I could talk it over with Mom.

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Eternal sadness, darken heart.

Beauty now stolen,

your soul feels scarred.

There is a complete void, that no one can erase,

Bitterness is know feeding your mind

drenching you of all hope,

That you left behind.

The world seems so empty,

lost of all it’s beauty.

Yet there is a rainbow in the clouds,

that you choose not to see.

You can not hear the birds sweet melody.

Because you are filled with too much self pity.

We go through a lot as humans,

for our hearts to change,

but some choose not too look beyond there own pain.

So you dwell in the past of hatred or regret.

Telling yourselves it is not easy to forget.

A lost love, lost friend or family member

that done you wrong.

Not willing to forget or move on.

So your spirit continue to sing that sad song.

We choose to have hope,

we choose to believe.

Whether there is now darkness,

or endless beauty.

Happy New Year everyone!  Today is the official first Sunday of 2007!  That means it is time to make new resolutions again. First one for me is actually stick to  what I said I  do this year.  Oh Yeah, I am also interested in making some new friends so if you are interested just email me. Well anyway hope this is your best year ever.

 

TTYL

 

 

It sadden me to know that more then half a million kids have died from this deadly disease in 2005 alone. Let us all pray that we find a cure soon, and if you are blessed  enough to help money wise please do so.  I hope soon we could find a cure , because everyone deserve a second chance. And these poor children did not even have one.

 

God Bless

Yolanda

 

This has been a really long week. I work at Kmart for about two weeks, it is a mile stone to my long journey of life. It not that hard if they do not spend you in circles and keep making your shift longer after you get there. I am grateful that I am almost working full time that way though. I am still looking for a better one, I need a job with good starting wages. Life is so expensive in Cali , I wish we could all live here on a small salary. I cannot wait for thanksgiving , I hope my brother comes up this year. He always does every other year. Besides I love cooking, but I hate making my homemade banana pudding, I make the pudding from scratch , only problem is my parents eat it within a day and a half even though it is very large. I have to always eat some the first day, or not eat none at all. I like the people that work at Kmart, and the customer are always saying I am so beautiful or they love my hair. A older guy at church said men would be lining up to date me if I did not look so young. It amazes me how many people called me beautiful, I am cute but not beautiful. I wish only Matt would see me that way, but oh well. My husband when we finally meet will see me that way. Even if I do not know him now, I know he exist.


that it, I love you all. For we are all God's children

Yolanda

I am grateful for all your concern and advice. I feel  I do need a little counseling,  funny thing is my Dad has a doctorate in psychology.  I trying to figure out my life, for instant a better education.  I could see there a lot to be grateful for my little sister Debra,  my new job, and most of all Jesus who died for all of  our sin. Today was great , work was great, and I am more hopeful that I will somehow accomplish my goals. I need to remember to always be optimistic, because things could always be worse.

Today was kind of cold, I have a form of RA that is why it kind of suck.  Oh well,  at least I can feel my legs and still walk. Weekend was long and boring, watch my kid sister while my parents went to Laughlin. I think I might move there, because I always like lakes, and having casino and other stuff doesn't hurt. Besides my parents  said  they have a culinary art school. I desire to go to one if it is not that expensive. The other ones cost much as USC  cost yearly.  And  it only takes a year!  It is not practical only if I was guaranteed a job. But I also love science ,  I am planning for that now to be my major. I dream about finding the cure for AIDS and Cancer. But that is going to be a very long road.  Hey  when I turn about 65 , that is when I will believe that  it will not happen, even than ther still is a  chance.


Well God Bless everyone who reads this ,

Yolanda

I have been looking for a job, well a better . I  work at BK, they give me crappy hours. And would you really consider that a job anyway.  I like  this guy name Matt who is white and live in Reno, he is my friend . Whatever [ LOL]  But nothing worth having is never easy. Some of you might know him he  used to live there before he went to USC . Now he lives in Reno.  I think I email him too much,well let see what else I  can say, I love God of   course , have not been to church in about a month. That makes feel kind of depressive.  My car is constantly getting poop on by birds,  I  need to get a apartment with a garage.  Well a guess that is enough , here is my life right now in a nutshell.

TTYL