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Michael Savage's long, strange trip

How a Jewish kid from the Bronx went from swimming naked with Allen Ginsberg to spewing the ugliest bile on talk radio.

By David Gilson

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March 5, 2003 | At first glance, Michael Alan Weiner seems like an improbable candidate to be America's angriest, most vicious conservative radio host. Born 60 years ago in the Bronx, Weiner has lived in Northern California for most of his adult life, making a living as an herbalist and nutritionist. He communed with Fijian traditional healers, got married in a rain forest and studied ethno-medicine at the University of California at Berkeley. He swam naked with Allen Ginsberg, dreamed of being the next Lenny Bruce and wrote a rambling novel about a half-mad alter ego. His son's middle name is Goldencloud. For years, he made a name cranking out a pile of books on alternative medicine, recommending bizarre remedies such as using vitamin C to stop AIDS and kicking cocaine with coffee enemas.

These days, Weiner's more interested in purging the body politic. Using the pseudonym Michael Savage, he's launched a one-man mission to save America from its enemies at home and abroad, which on any given day includes liberals, gays, academics, the homeless, the Clintons, immigrants, feminists, CNN, the American Civil Liberties Union, Muslims and other minorities. Broadcasting three hours a day, five afternoons a week, from a rented studio in downtown San Francisco, he gives voice to the right wing's darkest fantasies. He muses about launching preemptive nuclear strikes on the Middle East ("I wish to God the hatches were open and the missiles were flying!"), suggests gunning down illegal immigrants ("If we had a government, we'd blow them out of the desert with airplanes!"), dreams of dispatching with "commies, pinkos and perverts" and other undesirables ("I say round them up and hang 'em high!") and even paraphrases a remark attributed to Nazi leader Hermann Goering ("When I hear someone's in the civil rights business, I oil up my AR-15!")

Woe be unto those who label him racist, sexist or homophobic -- or even worse, threaten his livelihood. When an Oregon group started a boycott of his advertisers last summer, he became downright apoplectic. "I'm more powerful than you are, you little hateful nothings!" he screeched, before intoning darkly in his trademark New-Yawk accent: "I'm gonna warn you again: If you harm me -- and I pray that no harm comes to you -- but I can't guarantee that it won't." Just last week, Savage fumed about the "brownshirt groups" who dare to criticize him: "You stinking rats who hide in the sewers! ... You think I'm going to roll over like a Kitty? You're wrong!" Such vitriolic ranting is over the top, even by the ever-declining standards of talk-radio decorum. Yet, in this time of war fever and hyperpatriotism, inflammatory rhetoric draws conservative ditto-heads and liberal rubberneckers alike, and that translates into big ratings. Since launching "The Savage Nation" on San Francisco's KSFO 560 AM more than eight years ago, Savage has gone from being just another right-winger with a big mouth, a hyperinflated ego and a sizable chip on his shoulder to becoming the nation's fifth most-popular talk-radio personality, a host with enough leverage to land Vice President Dick Cheney as a guest. His book, "The Savage Nation: Saving America From the Liberal Assault on Our Borders, Language and Culture," has been perched at the top of the New York Times bestseller list for over a month, and now he's slated to get his own program on MSNBC.

Michael Weiner's long and circuitous road has taken him from being a scientist and entrepreneur, through stints as a hipster, novelist and aspiring comedian, to becoming the personification of straight white male rage. Today he likes to play up his unconventional career path, to an extent. He's the kind of guy who never lets anyone forget he has a Ph.D. His Web site reminds visitors that he is a "World Famous Herbal Expert" and the author of 18 books. But just as his gap-toothed grin has been replaced by a row of airbrushed pearly whites on the front cover of his new book, he gives his audience a whitewashed version of his past. The real story is far more interesting, not just for its ironies and contradictions, but for the often disturbing clues it provides about the man now so well known as Michael Savage. He's gone through at least one political makeover. He's turned on old friends, or they've turned on him. If his semi-autobiographical novel is any guide to his own life, he's keeping a few skeletons in his closet.

In the end, the picture that emerges from his books, from interviews with past and current associates, and from his radio show is that "The Savage Nation" is just the latest undertaking of a man who's spent his life trying to get the world to notice him.

Savage's office said he was too busy preparing for his TV show to be interviewed for this article. Earlier interview requests by phone and e-mail prompted an irritated phone call from a woman named Janet, who announced that Savage would not speak with me. Asked if she was his wife -- who happens to be named Janet -- she said she was not. "I am not affiliated with him," she insisted. "I'm just a fan." After a few minutes of testy back and forth, she suggested that it would be unfortunate if my e-mail address and phone number were somehow posted across the Internet.

Savage has come a long way since he emceed school assemblies at P.S. 42 in the Bronx. His father, a Russian Jewish immigrant, made a living selling antique bronzes on Orchard Street. An imposing figure who died of a heart attack in the early 1970s, he is the frequent subject of his son's on-air stories. Speaking at a convention sponsored by the trade magazine Radio & Records in March 2001, Savage recalled getting his first lesson in politics -- and cynicism -- from his dad. "[H]e explained politics to me very clearly. He said, 'You see, this is how the world works ... In this beautiful country of ours there are two bands of thieves: the Republicans and the Democrats.'"

Though Savage waxes nostalgic about such father-and-son moments, it appears that his parents were no Ozzie and Harriet. "I was raised on neglect, anger, and hate," he writes in "The Savage Nation." But growing up with little parental approval or praise was a good thing, he says. "Frankly, that's why I'm driven the way I am."

Savage, who now decries "propaganda about America being the Land of Immigrants," isn't ashamed of his own immigrant parents. However, his Jewish upbringing is strictly taboo. And he often makes Joseph Lieberman, Barbra Streisand and Larry King the butt of stale ethnic jokes. Brad Kava, radio columnist for the San Jose Mercury News and a longtime Savage critic, thinks Savage's ambivalence toward Jews is a misguided attempt to pander to conservative Christians. "He's Jewish, but he always acts like he's Christian," he says. In his book "The Savage Nation," for example, he complains of an anti-Christian bias in America. When Kava, who is Jewish, "outed" Savage several years ago, Savage reported him to the Anti-Defamation League. Dr. Robert F. Cathcart, a longtime friend of the talk-show star, speculated in a telephone interview that Savage says little about his background so that he appears more "neutral" when he discusses Israel or religious topics.

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 A 2006 study found that the average American walks about 900 miles a year.

Another study found that Americans drink an average of 22 gallons of beer a year.

That means, on average, Americans get about 41 miles per gallon."

Not Bad
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Someone sent this to me today and though it may have been around a while, it's still a "take me back" piece.

What Made Me Me

Long ago and far away,
In a land that time forgot,
Before the days of Dylan,
Or the dawn of Camelot.    

There lived a race of innocents,
And they were you and me,
Long ago and far away
In the Land That Made Me Me.  

Oh, there was truth and goodness
In that land where we were born,
Where navels were for oranges,
And  was porn.  
Peyton Place

For Ike was in the White House,
And Hoss was on TV,
And God was in His heaven
In the Land That Made Me Me.

We learned to gut a muffler,
We washed our hair at dawn,
We spread our crinolines to dry
In circles on the lawn.  

And they could hear us coming
All the way to Tennessee,
All starched and sprayed and rumbling
in the Land That Made Me Me.  

We longed  for love and romance,
And waited for the prince,
And Eddie Fisher married Liz,
And no one's seen him since.  

We danced  to "Little Darlin'",
And Sang to "Stagger Lee"
And cried for Buddy Holly
In the Land That Made Me Me.
 
Only girls wore earrings then,
And three was one too many,
And only boys wore flat-top cuts,
Except  for Jean McKinney.  

And only in our wildest dreams
Did we expect to see
A boy named George, with Lipstick
In the Land That Made Me Me.  

We fell  for Frankie Avalon,
Annette was oh, so nice,
And when they made a movie,
They never made it twice.  

We didn't have a Star Trek Five,
Or Psycho Two and Three,
Or Rockey-Rambo Twenty
In the Land That Made Me Me.
 
Miss  Kitty had a heart of gold,
And Chester had a limp,
And Reagan  was a Democrat
Whose co-star was a chimp.  

We had a Mr Wizard,
But not a Mr T,
And Oprah couldn't talk, yet
In the Land That Made Me Me.  

We had our share of heroes,
We never thought they'd go,
At least not Bobby Darin,
Or Marilyn Monroe..  

For youth was still eternal,
And life was yet to be,
And Elvis was forever,
In the Land That Made Me Me.  

We'd  never seen the rock band
That was Grateful to be Dead,
And Airplanes weren't named Jefferson,
And Zeppelins weren't Led..

And Beatles lived in gardens then,
And Monkees in a tree,
Madonna was a virgin
In the Land That Made Me Me.  

We'd  never heard of Microwaves,
Or telephones in cars,
And babies might be bottle-fed,
But they weren't grown in jars.  

And pumping iron got wrinkles out,
And  "gay" meant  fancy-free,
And dorms were never coed
In the  Land That Made Me Me.  

We hadn't seen enough of jets
To talk about the lag,
And microchips were what was left at
The bottom of the bag.

And Hardware was a box of nails,
And bytes came from a  flea,
And rocket ships were fiction
In the Land That Made Me Me.  

Buicks came with portholes,
And side show came with freaks,
And bathing suits came big enough
To cover both your cheeks.  

And Coke came just in bottles,
And skirts came to the  knee,
And Castro came to power
In the Land That  Made Me Me.  

We had no Crest with Fluoride,
We had no Blues,
We all wore superstructure bras
Designed by Howard  Hughes.  
Hill Street

We had no patterned pantyhose
Or Lipton herbal tea
Or prime-time ads for condoms
In the Land That Made Me Me.

There were no golden arches,
No Perriers to chill,
And fish were not called Wanda,
And cats were not called Bill.  

And  middle-aged was thirty-five
And old was forty-three,
And ancient was our parents
In the Land That Made Me Me.  

But all things have a season,
Or so we've heard them say,
And now instead of Maybelline
We swear by  Retin-A.  

And they send us invitations
To join AARP,
We've come a  long way, baby,
From the Land That Made Me Me.  

So now we face a brave new world
In slightly larger jeans,
And wonder why they're using
Smaller print in magazines.
 
And we tell our children's children
of the way it used to be,
Long ago, and far away
In the Land That Made Me Me. 

--Author unknown

 

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In celebration of Mother's Day, we thought we'd right a wrong with your
help. Know those jokes that begin, "Yo Momma is so …" and end with an
insult? Our new contest aims to turn the joke on its head. We've come
up with some nice Yo Momma jokes:

· "Yo Momma is so honest, she wouldn't steal second base during a softball
game."
· "Yo Momma is so thrifty, she asks for a price check at the Dollar
Store. "
· "Yo Momma is so careful, when she heard that 90 percent of all accidents
occur at home, she moved."

We went thru a series of these a while back but I don't know where the thread is to add these on.  So..here we go again.

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The lack of road courtesy was brought up on another blog so I'm wondering...what is YOUR pet peeve when it comes to traffic?  We've probably done this before but the good thing about bad memory is that we can discuss the same thing over and over and it's always new.  My top 10.

1.  People pulling out in front of you when there's no one behind you...then lollygagging along.

2.  People who know two lanes are narrowing to 1 (construction) and stay in the closing lane til the last two feet...THEN they want to crowd over.

3.  People who leave their turn signal on for 26 miles faking you out so you're afraid to pass them.   Sure as the world when you brave it,  it's like "oh..this is where I want to turn..just warning you ahead of time."

4.  People who weave in and out of lanes at high speeds.  We'll meet up at the next red light goofball.

5.  People who start to pass you at 2 miles an hour more that you're going so they block both lanes.

6. Truckers who do the above in the mountains forcing YOU to gear down and drive 5 miles an hour.

7.  People who park the wrong way on residential streets.  (don't know why it bugs me but it does.  Maybe it just seems against the order of things, never having lived on a one way street.)

8.  People who pass on double yellow lines.  They're there for a reason.

9.  People who see you are waiting to turn at an intersection and don't use their turn indicators so you can go.

10.  (Inside the car) People who want to tell you how to drive even though you've gone for 40 years without having an accident, or causing one.

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The day this blog talked about the shooting I mentioned it was typical to turn it into a gun control issue.  Lo and behold, I opened the Jacoby piece  today and was glad to see I wasn't alone in that feeling.  Please take a few minutes to read it all the way to the bottom.

A TIME FOR TEARS AND SILENCE, NOT POLITICS

By Jeff Jacoby

The Boston, Globe

 

Sunday, April 22, 2007

 

http://www.boston.com/news/...

 

    Paul Helmke didn't miss a beat. The bodies of the Virginia Tech shooting victims weren't yet cold when the president of the Brady Campaign to Prevent Gun Violence was out with a press release.

 

    "Details are still forthcoming about what motivated the shooter in this case to act," Helmke's statement said. "It is well known, however, how easy it is for an individual to get powerful weapons in our country. . . . It is long overdue for us to take some common-sense actions to prevent tragedies like this from continuing to occur."

 

    Helmke was far from the only belligerent in the gun control wars who couldn't wait to exploit the awful news from Virginia Tech for political purposes.

 

    The Million Mom March put out a statement calling the massacre by Seung-Hui Cho "a heartbreaking commentary on American values." A New York Times editorial insisted, "What is needed, urgently, is stronger controls over the lethal weapons that cause such wasteful carnage and such unbearable loss." In the Daily News, columnist Michael Daly sneered: "Still love those guns, Virginia? . . . Feel different now that the blood is the blood of so many of your most promising young people?"

 

    On the other side of the gun debate, the Second Amendment Foundation piously lamented that rather than respond to the deaths in Virginia with "deep reflection," its opponents were "shamelessly dancing in the blood of crime victims to advance their agenda" -- something the Second Amendment Foundation, which made sure to put the words "Dancing In Blood" in the headline of its statement, would surely never stoop to. Within hours of the slaughter, meanwhile, ABC News had an interactive poll up on its website, the better to turn a horrific atrocity into instant political fodder: "Do you think this incident is a reason to pass stricter gun control legislation?"

 

    It wasn't only pro- and anti gun partisans who rushed to make political hay of the bloodshed at Virginia Tech.

 

    Within an hour of the second round of shootings, Daily Kos blogger L C Johnson was noting smugly that "this gives us an idea of what it is like to live just one day in Iraq." An anti-American diatribe on the World Socialist Web Site blamed the killings on a culture in which "the lesson taught by the ruling elite is clear: in achieving one's aims, any sort of ruthlessness is legitimate." Republican blogger Mary Katharine Ham was alarmed that the leading GOP presidential candidates didn't have messages of sympathy prominently emblazoned on their Web pages, while those of the Democrats did.

 

    Ugh. There is a time for everything, and the immediate aftermath of a ghastly mass murder is a time for tears and silence and prayer -- not for exploiting the dead to advance a political agenda.

 

    Of course, political agendas matter; democratic self-government would be impossible without them. The Supreme Court's abortion ruling last week was a reminder that when a highly contentious issue is forced outside the political realm, the results can be unsettling and inflammatory. In 1973, Roe v. Wade deprived voters and legislators of the right to make abortion policy for themselves, announcing instead an all-but-impermeable constitutional "right to choose." Yet far from settling the matter, Roe turned abortion into one of the most divisive subjects in American life. It is a classic illustration of the folly of suppressing political energy.

 

    But that is no justification for allowing politics to ride roughshod over human tragedy. Every death should be a reminder that our time on this earth is limited, and that the passions of the moment will not occupy us forever. Your first reaction to a horror like Virginia Tech shouldn't be to milk it for partisan advantage, but to remember that every day may be your last, and to adjust your priorities accordingly.

 

    On April 4, 1968, Robert F. Kennedy was on his way to a campaign rally in Indianapolis when he learned that Martin Luther King had been assassinated in Memphis. Breaking the news to the largely black audience, the normally hyperpartisan Kennedy had the grace and good judgment to rise above politics.

 

    "You can be filled with bitterness, and with hatred, and a desire for revenge," he told his listeners. But "what we need in the United States is not hatred . . . but love and wisdom and compassion toward one another." From memory, he quoted Aeschylus, who wrote 25 centuries ago of the wisdom that pain and despair can reveal. And Kennedy ended with a plea as poignant and relevant today as it was in 1968:

 

    "Let us dedicate ourselves to what the Greeks wrote so many years ago: to tame the savageness of man and make gentle the life of this world. Let us dedicate ourselves to that, and say a prayer for our country, and for our people."

 

(Jeff Jacoby is a columnist for The Boston Globe.)

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I seem to have a problem getting pics on other blogs so I'll do it here.  Tom..have you seen vents like these?  As I stated, as far as I know they vent directly into the attic but are probably covered with insulation.

The first one is the bathroom, the second is the kitchen and the third is the living room with the rounded corners.

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I heard that some guys opened a tank that holds the odor used in natural gas to make it have that distictive odor.  Last I heard it traveled as far as Arvin.  Anyone else smell it?
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It would seem most of the regular bloggers are a good bit away from needing to make medicare decisions but maybe some will know..or some other folks out there would care to share their experience.  I have to make that decision and am totally lost.  I understand that part A is free but part B and C will cost about 124 per month.  How on earth can they expect people to pay that kind of money out of a SS check?

I'm still working, and will be for the foreseeable future so I have insurance that I pay for already.  Does anyone know how that works?  Do you continue to use your own insurance AND pay for Medicare?  Or one..or the other?

I'd like to get perspective from others who have had to make this decision.  I fully intend to get advice from SS also but sometimes they just make it more confusing.

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Here's a question for you folks.  Are there any words that bring back an instant visual of something from your childhood?  I just mentioned "tipping over my giggle box"  on Rons blog and it instantly brought back a visual of the water fountain in the old country church I went to as a kid.  It was in the back corner and was enclosed in wood like narrow tongue and groove and had the ball shaped dispenser with the hole in the middle that you used to see.  I have no clue why that seems to be a giggle box in my mind but there you are.  That image pops up every time I use the giggle box expression.

Another is Thornton.  When I was little, 3-4 years old,  we lived on Edison Highway in one of the camps (pictured here).  Near where the Mercada sits now (used to be a lumber yard) there was a brick yard with red/orange dirt all around.  Sitting there was a huge hopper on tall legs and that always pops into my mind when I hear the word  "Thornton."  Now I know that sounds nuts, but think I might have a reason for that.  Prior to that time, we lived in Rio Vista and the city of Thornton so I'm assuming there must have been big hoppers like that and I just associated the town with the sight.

Smells are a different thing but when I smell exhaust from an old car it immediately brings up a memory of sleeping in the back floorboard of our car on a trip back to Texas.   Knowing the exhaust smell might have been a warning, it's a wonder we weren't asphixiated.  :-)

How 'bout you folks..any memories like that?

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I just heard that in some places, cities are talking about supplying porta potties and dumpsters in homeless "communities" to help keep them more sanitary.  Do you believe these "squatters" (no pun intended) should have these amenities at your expense? 
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The Easter Dad Stopped Drinking
Living with an alcoholic almost destroyed my childhood, but angels helped me love my father again.
By Patricia Gaddis

A former co-worker once asked me if I believed in miracles. It was during the Easter season and we were in a department store filled with pastel eggs, colorful baskets, and lovely spring fashions. I told her that I did believe in miracles; her question took me back to a time when God's power transformed my family from chaos to peace.
I was a precocious nine-year old at the time and I had watched my dad's unstable journey with alcohol for my entire life. Because of this, I was amazed when I saw my father suddenly transformed into a totally different man. For the first time, our home was filled with peace. Holidays and weekends were filled with joy as we spent time together. Sobriety gave dad a new interest in our living conditions and he began making repairs to the house. He also began attending church, reading the Bible daily, and attempting to make amends to those he had hurt. In his own way, dad followed a spiritual recovery program, turning his problems over to God and associating with new, sober friends. Also, instead of going to bars and getting into fights, he began taking his family out to eat, playing golf, and going to the zoo. Once I overheard him telling a co-worker that his family now came first and he would no longer be going out for drinks. I felt like I was in a heavenly place where monsters would no longer enter. No more sleeping in my clothes or worrying that dad might hurt mom or burn down the house. There was also milk to drink and plenty of food to eat because alcohol was no longer the head of our home.

By the time dad died when I was 13, I loved him with my whole heart and I thought he was the greatest guy on earth. I felt I had been given a tremendous blessing in knowing my real father—a highly intelligent, generous, wise, fun, and compassionate man who always looked on the bright side.

Unfortunately, despite becoming a new person, dad couldn't restore his marriage. Although Mom stayed with him, there was an unresponsive stillness in her eyes that I later identified as spiritual death. Their marriage had ended long before she could feel the complete joy of his sobriety and she kept her distance until the day he died. But at his funeral she sobbed uncontrollably. I was stunned because I could not remember ever seeing her cry. She always seemed so strong when dad was on a drinking binge, making sure that we had our Christmas presents, our Easter outfits that she designed for us, our rides to grandmother's house. Mom always took us to church and taught us to pray. For the first time at the funeral, mom was able to find forgiveness for dad.

Dad could just as easily have used the illness as an excuse to drink even more. But somehow the diagnosis and the doctor's stern warning on Easter morning was a last intervention to give my dad courage to change. His transformation profoundly affected my life because it enabled me to get know my real father. I do not believe that God made my father sick to stop his addiction, but I do believe that God wants His children to be whole, and dad was certainly at peace when God called him home.

Easter and the resurrection of Jesus are a call for us to change, perhaps change as radically as my dad. All of us truly share in the risen life when our lives and our behavior undergo constant development. Although it has been 40 years since his death, I dream of dad almost every night. In the years immediately following his burial, he often appeared in my dreams to discuss the importance of staying on the right path and to give assurance that he was watching over me. These days he still visits, sometimes driving me around town in my dreams! Although I do not always remember exactly what we talk about, I usually awaken with a smile, knowing that dad is still a "driving force" in my life and that he is still cheering me on from the other side.


My childhood was in constant turmoil. All holidays and most weekends were filled with fear and anxiety because my father was a raging alcoholic. When dad was intoxicated he called Mom names that I had never heard before. I would ask my mother what those words meant and she would sadly shake her head, telling me that I should never repeat those words to anyone. On most weekends dad would carouse with his drinking buddies, then stagger through the door barely making it to his favorite chair beside the stove where he would drink whiskey straight out of the bottle and hurl insults at my mother while she hid in the next room. My older sisters stood guard to be sure that he did not burn the house down while nodding off to sleep with a lit cigarette in his hand. Sometimes he stuffed the stove so full of wood that we felt sure our house would catch fire. Because of this we often slept in our clothes, including our shoes and socks, so that we could get out of the house in a hurry if we had to.

Back then 911 did not exist, so my older sisters would run over to a neighbor's house and call our aunt and uncle when dad became extra loud. No matter what time of day or night, our aunt and uncle would immediately pick us up. Mom would pack paper bags with a clean change of clothing and toothbrushes and then we would all sneak out the back door and walk down the road to wait for their pretty blue car.

My aunt and uncle were angels, whisking us away to grandmother's house where it was safe. She always had our beds ready and a hot meal waiting for us. I always longed to stay at my grandmother's house because it was so serene. Sometimes after a drunken binge dad would appear on the porch with a bag of candy or a jar of honey as a peace offering. Without fail, my grandmother welcomed him warmly and insisted that he sit down for coffee and home-baked cookies or cake. She would sit with him and chat as though nothing out of the ordinary had occurred. I realize now that she did this to soothe my dad and keep the peace because she understood the intense shame that he felt. Once I overheard her telling my mother that if dad could stay away from whiskey, he would be the nicest human being who ever lived. But all I wanted was for him to go away and leave us in peace.

Almost every Friday after dad received his paycheck he would come home in a drunken stupor. Friday was our day to go to the grocery store, but often we had to wait until Monday when he was sober. Sometimes he would announce he would quit drinking, but he was never able to do so. Until the Easter Season of 1963--when he was diagnosed with chronic leukemia. Dad had to be hospitalized and the doctor sternly cautioned that he would have to stop drinking for the cancer treatments to be effective. With willpower dad shook the doctor's hand on Easter Sunday and promised that he would never touch another drop of alcohol.

I was a precocious nine-year old at the time and I had watched my dad's unstable journey with alcohol for my entire life. Because of this, I was amazed when I saw my father suddenly transformed into a totally different man. For the first time, our home was filled with peace. Holidays and weekends were filled with joy as we spent time together. Sobriety gave dad a new interest in our living conditions and he began making repairs to the house. He also began attending church, reading the Bible daily, and attempting to make amends to those he had hurt. In his own way, dad followed a spiritual recovery program, turning his problems over to God and associating with new, sober friends. Also, instead of going to bars and getting into fights, he began taking his family out to eat, playing golf, and going to the zoo. Once I overheard him telling a co-worker that his family now came first and he would no longer be going out for drinks. I felt like I was in a heavenly place where monsters would no longer enter. No more sleeping in my clothes or worrying that dad might hurt mom or burn down the house. There was also milk to drink and plenty of food to eat because alcohol was no longer the head of our home.

By the time dad died when I was 13, I loved him with my whole heart and I thought he was the greatest guy on earth. I felt I had been given a tremendous blessing in knowing my real father—a highly intelligent, generous, wise, fun, and compassionate man who always looked on the bright side.

Unfortunately, despite becoming a new person, dad couldn't restore his marriage. Although Mom stayed with him, there was an unresponsive stillness in her eyes that I later identified as spiritual death. Their marriage had ended long before she could feel the complete joy of his sobriety and she kept her distance until the day he died. But at his funeral she sobbed uncontrollably. I was stunned because I could not remember ever seeing her cry. She always seemed so strong when dad was on a drinking binge, making sure that we had our Christmas presents, our Easter outfits that she designed for us, our rides to grandmother's house. Mom always took us to church and taught us to pray. For the first time at the funeral, mom was able to find forgiveness for dad.

Dad could just as easily have used the illness as an excuse to drink even more. But somehow the diagnosis and the doctor's stern warning on Easter morning was a last intervention to give my dad courage to change. His transformation profoundly affected my life because it enabled me to get know my real father. I do not believe that God made my father sick to stop his addiction, but I do believe that God wants His children to be whole, and dad was certainly at peace when God called him home.

Easter and the resurrection of Jesus are a call for us to change, perhaps change as radically as my dad. All of us truly share in the risen life when our lives and our behavior undergo constant development. Although it has been 40 years since his death, I dream of dad almost every night. In the years immediately following his burial, he often appeared in my dreams to discuss the importance of staying on the right path and to give assurance that he was watching over me. These days he still visits, sometimes driving me around town in my dreams! Although I do not always remember exactly what we talk about, I usually awaken with a smile, knowing that dad is still a "driving force" in my life and that he is still cheering me on from the other side.

 

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You always hear the Mideast, Greece, and Rome mentioned as "ancient land" or "ancient soil."  I 'm wondering how it got to be so much older than the land here. 
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