He wanted a "nobody moping about just get together,drink,play some music when I die"party so that is what Bakersfield will do. Wednesday the 27th at Fish Lips.

I wanted to write about Scott, I knew him well,when his Mom died I became his 2nd Mom,then as he slid into the dark years we drifted apart.What kind of man was he?

At the end he called we reconciled all the bad between us~he started to stammer a "I'm sorry" but I would not let him~he was better, I needed no sorry.But ,now, it has eaten at me ,why he did not share that he was so close to dying?

As most of you know my sons died 9 months apart in 2004.I am known for being strong,if I had a dime for each time I heard the phrase"you can handle this ~your strong"( I believe said more for the speakers reassurance than mine)I would be wealthy.So why? Why did Scott not tell me? Because He knew exactly how thin this line I tread every day is...he knew even I had limits.

So he kept his great secret~perhaps he had other reasons as well.But I know he tried to protect me one last time..till he could protect me no more.That is the kind of man he grew into.Flea has said the most Punk thing you can do is find someone and love them.Here is to the King of Punks,he loved many and in the end himself.My friend,my son ~Scott. Blessed Be and R.I.P.